so i was reading my last post and thought it was totally funny. how quickly things change. well, in thinking about that day at summer palace and how for the first time we weren't sweating bullets - we also got ripped off in a taxi cab and for the first time in china i felt unsafe. and then we couldn't get train tickets to Xian which freaked us out because all of our flights were based off from getting to Xian. It all worked out after getting to the right floor of the train station and amazingly just talking to another ticket seller but the first woman we talked to was like nope, no train tickets left to Xian and we couldn't believe it. Strange.
So, I am moving to China which I also can't believe. I don't know if im still in shock or just trying to wrap my brain around it all. its scary, exciting, crazy, fun. A lot to take in. I'm just so happy its happening. A step in the right direction it feels. I'm not crazy about having to teach another year but it will be totally different and hopefully less stressful then this year from hell. I've been thinking about it though, its been total preparation for the next step. God wants me to deal with these bullies and these giants. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
so i'm at home and its so good. almost makes me feel homesick but ill be able to come back again for a little bit. it will be difficult to leave and return to the boss from hell. well, god is my strength and thats all that i need. and i know now that no matter what, i cant let my peace and my joy be taken. living in the spirit each day and letting the stresses be stresses but being content and having peace in the storm. wow, ive come a long way.
hopefully i will be able to document my next journey a bit better. ive made lots of mistakes this year but im proud to say that ive learned from them all and i know its all in god's love. and most importantly im human and im supposed to make mistakes. and i need to recognize my emotions and pain and the fact that i am human and be happy with me.
