anger anger go away come again another day

I really can't seem to squish the urge to throw my telephone out of the window. DB Kirk. Who is named Kirk anyway? My replacement that is. My replacement for no good reason - just because of money and guanxi. Money makes the world go around and connections solidify. I was that kid who didn't get picked for kickball. Why is the work place still a childish playground and ratings are based on popularity instead of performance? The better question is why I can't seem to put on the personality of smoothing the feathers. I guess boss butt kissing just wasn't in my DNA. That or I missed the "How to schmooze" class in college. Thanks AU for adequately preparing me for real life. Great use of 60k a year.

In honesty I loved college. Part because I'm a nerd and part because its a unique time in life when you have the time and ability to explore. I never had a boxed in education and college enhances that. This is good. Tangents of distraction are good for the anger. Focus on the good. Not on throwing my telephone out the roof/window/at my boss.

back to the bay

So its been some time since my return to the bay. A year to be exact. Since I left all I wanted was to return...something about the weather. Anyway, the focus of this post is to vent. I am frustrated beyond belief. What if life was fair and the experienced candidate who had been doing the job actually got the job? Life being fair in all aspects, not just to me. I guess thats why we live in a fallen world. A world that can be cruel and unjust. Good to know it won't always be like that. I have to refocus my mindset and have faith. In the mean time, I just want to strangle my phone that reminds me that I'm being replaced by a DB. I'm seriously overqualified for this job - why are the odds always against me even when they should be in my favor?