is xmas over yet?

so much pressure at this time of year. God I feel like I haven't appreciated this season. I've been so caught up in whether or not I'll be hired and playing games. Lord I just want to serve you. If you want me at the nursing school make it clear. I don't understand the rogue politics and dishonesty.

Swalling my pride today and trying to catch up was tough. Especially since I was reemed when it wasn't all my fault. Well, only 4 more days. Then just a different kind of drama haha.

Its nice to have my personal life going a bit better. Something pleasent to focus on at least. I'm thankful I had another day to serve God. Give me patience and your love and eyes to see my crazy coworker.

a reflection

as I write this I'm enjoying Alvin and the Chipmunks christmas (the old one, none of this new fangled ness). Life is good. Work sucks but its nice to be dating someone and that's exciting. Another K but at least he doesn't have a white truck.

God I thank you that no matter what you are right here with me. Even though I feel alone and lost and helpless I truly have you in my backpocket at all times giving me your love, peace, patience, and kindness. I turn over my financial troubles to you and ask for your grace and wisdom. I pray for your financial freedom and so thankful for the school debt I have paid off and how small a debt I owe compared to others. You've blessed me so much - Hawaii free vacation (although there was a price that was paid), my car, a place to live, my health. I trust you Lord with 2012 and ask for your divine intervention in my relationships and career.