finding the right words

reflection is tough. looking at yourself and taking responsibility for my part can be a hard pill to swallow. because then you have to change right? And that's the hard part.

I'm really grateful for the wonderful relationships in my life. Too often it's easier to focus on the negativity but it's important to claim the greatest relationship which is with Christ. Focusing on him puts everything else into perspective. Minimize me and amplify Him. I have to constantly remind myself it's not about me.

I thank you God that you are going to provide in your perfect way. Although I don't understand these last two years of up and down, employment and unemployment I know I have to keep clinging to you. You make sense.  

grief

what is this feeling? why do females get hung up on it more then males? I just feel like as a girl I "feel" more in general. Sometimes its like the ocean roaring and I wonder if I will get swallowed up.


Thank goodness for Monday night beach run. I just feel as if I get to hit my internal reset button and reconnect with you God.

I've been thinking a lot about relationships and how we interact with people. I'm in the interview process of doing a recruiter job and I think I would be really good at it. Citizen schools is also in process and they are a really interesting organization. Lord I place my job search in your hands and trust that you will bring the next right thing. I thank you for your continued provision and guidance in my life. I pray that I may be faithful and disciplined in all that you put on my plate. I pray that I would be faithful in the small things and enjoy the blessings you have placed on my path.