Sometimes I wonder how much we all live in denial. I've been re-watching Finding Nemo over and over, something about it just puts me to sleep and eases my mind. I can't get the scene out of my head when he ends up at a shark "fish are friends not food" 12 step group. This movie got tons of replay while I was babysitting in highschool....could be why I keep going back to it....wanting to relive my teenage self.
Grief. It passes through you like all emotions due. I'm so thankful for the rain. Pouring on my hand as I drive through SF. When it rained in FL it was such a relief. Relief from the smoldering heat on my shoulders.
Cello boy. Will he be a boy or a man? That is still TBD. Relationships have been quizzing me lately. So intense. We need each other: friends, family, co-workers. As my good college friend KD put it: I don't live in this world alone, there will be other tourists in my pictures. HA!
Irish. Blah. All it does is rain there. Poetic? I think not. Lesson of the day, don't follow the picker. Run the other way!
I got to help an elderly lady on sunday in the grocery store. It made my heart bloom with joy to be able to serve another in a simple small way. I always loved having the grocers help my mom out the store with her basket at Publix. Self-serve cashiers are so cold in comparison.
Sleep....it calls to me. My body eventually will listen. My peace is with Christ. I have to stay in that state of mind. Stop, drop, and roll everything else. Off the mountain into the ocean, whoosh.
Why do we want relationships so much? My coworker was going on about wanting a boy friend. We put so much emphasis (us girls) on our love lives. I know how much energy and tears I've wasted. Well, I'm done. My focus is on my calling and the lover of my soul.
At the end of the day, every day, I remind myself that regardless life is good. I don't have to worry, I can live in peace. I don't have to fret, I can remain in joy. The blessings in my life are beautiful and abundant. God's love surrounds me in every stage and every season. I am beautiful and complete in his eyes. I just need his own eyes to see me and my surroundings. I am where my feet are!
