So, I don't know why I'm still having difficulty sleeping. Transition, must be in the CHAOS phase. I am normal haha. Oh just hormones, or a combo of both. I'm pretty tired phyiscally and I don't know, mind is running a million miles a minute. I'm excited. So excited I can't sleep!
Reconcilation. This is an interesting concept. A difficult one, but important to do as I'm finding. We all need this sense of closure in our lives. Life isn't always pretty, make my amends to those that I have trespassed on and I've built my side of the bridge. It was a rough year. I don't think it was a bad school year, I think I've just been burned and its time to heal and move forward. I can't let one negative experience tarnish my view of my future or this next adventure. Its not fair. I need to let it go, I sent the email and it doesn't matter if there is a response.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
a day at the falls...
so I know this isn't about the bay life but in a commitment to better record my life and reflect -- I got to see Niagra falls today! It was cool, I liked Canada, much more chillaxed than the US lol but I wasn't as impressed with the natural sight as I thought I would be...I was expecting great wall/pyramid WOWs but all I got was, yea its cool and look at this! But I was really just cold and wet but the sun came out as soon as it was time to go. Go figure!
Fun day, time to get some sleep. Remembering the goods is important...
Fun day, time to get some sleep. Remembering the goods is important...
Saturday, June 27, 2009
not enough to think about
How quickly life changes. It's past midnight here, east coast time, and my brain is whirring. This week has been interesting. Good but interesting. So different to be in a training, Wuxi people were complaining on Friday just tired for sitting for countless hours and I'm antsy too but I'm thinking comparatively this is great! Ohh boy, year three of teaching. Its strange though to listen to people's thoughts on teaching and I can join in on the conversation but I don't want to be able to join in on the conversation. perhaps because this isn't my world. well, it is my world since I do live in it so I guess that statement doesn't make much sense.
Who am I is the central theme here. Identifiying who you are and being solid in Christ seems to be the preparation. Its good, good doesn't seem like the right word to explain for it.
Anyway, commitments for the next adventure:
1) write a monthly email to all friends and family
2) semester/quarterly newsletter?
3) exercise a consistent three times a week as a routine, exceptions only if travelling.
4) blog three times a week, no exceptions.
5) return emails/personal relational communication within a week. (goal)
I think thats enough. Its interesting what Cindy was saying to me today about keeping my options open. I don't know what the future holds but I do know that God holds whatever is in the future. Thanks dad :0)
So my bay adventure is officially over, at least for now. I really did like cali though, a good place to call home! I will miss my persian family, the beautiful places, much better fashion, and just lifestyle. I was surely spoiled. Funny how I didn't recognize that till I left....
I was also asked what my expectations were. Which is funny because my answer was that I didn't have any. Which I still feel is partly true when I have made an effort not to create any but I think the point is that we all have expectations, its part of the human condition. I will have to continue to flesh this point out at a later time, interesting to sit on and stew for a bit.
I guess the final part of my ranting here in attemps to get everything out and "grow" hehe is reconcilliation. Its something I've been praying about, and need to pray more about. God is growing me in my prayer life though which is an answer to prayer haha! Surrender is something on my thoughts as well....
Who am I is the central theme here. Identifiying who you are and being solid in Christ seems to be the preparation. Its good, good doesn't seem like the right word to explain for it.
Anyway, commitments for the next adventure:
1) write a monthly email to all friends and family
2) semester/quarterly newsletter?
3) exercise a consistent three times a week as a routine, exceptions only if travelling.
4) blog three times a week, no exceptions.
5) return emails/personal relational communication within a week. (goal)
I think thats enough. Its interesting what Cindy was saying to me today about keeping my options open. I don't know what the future holds but I do know that God holds whatever is in the future. Thanks dad :0)
So my bay adventure is officially over, at least for now. I really did like cali though, a good place to call home! I will miss my persian family, the beautiful places, much better fashion, and just lifestyle. I was surely spoiled. Funny how I didn't recognize that till I left....
I was also asked what my expectations were. Which is funny because my answer was that I didn't have any. Which I still feel is partly true when I have made an effort not to create any but I think the point is that we all have expectations, its part of the human condition. I will have to continue to flesh this point out at a later time, interesting to sit on and stew for a bit.
I guess the final part of my ranting here in attemps to get everything out and "grow" hehe is reconcilliation. Its something I've been praying about, and need to pray more about. God is growing me in my prayer life though which is an answer to prayer haha! Surrender is something on my thoughts as well....
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