God thank you for all of the goodness you have infused in my life. You have opened a new door. I know you have more doors to reveal. Grant me your patience and discernment.
As soon as I surrendered living here, the game changed. You are moving the pieces God and I'm excited.
I give you this relationship that is unfolding. Help me to practice godly boundaries and to trust you. I know you have someone very special for me. I believe that you are molding and shaping him to be after your heart.
Protect my health and my sleep. May I go forth as a beacon of your light and joy.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Sunday, February 16, 2014
life moves
Twists and turns. I feel like the pieces of my life are coming back to settle. Which is strange considering I just moved apartments. It was a lot easier this time but it still brings up my trust/dependence issues.
God can I trust this new boy? Is he someone you want me to spending my time with? I want my dating life to glorify you. It's so hard for me - it truly is where I stumble in my walk with you. I know relationships are hard - I give this one to you. Whatever you want it to be I accept. I give you my insecurities.
I trust the plan you have for me. I know you will provide. Its not a big deal, I can just ask someone else to help me. Why do I feel anxiety right now? Could have to do with the gluten I ate last night. It's funny, my taste for bread things has dissipated. Not disappeared though - I have my moments.
It was hard talking to my grandpa this evening. The word slurs due to the amount of morphine is a reality check. Its sad for me to see him in this state - especially knowing the kind of man that he was. I want to remember him playing Sorry and blocks and taking us to wendy's. I know he was happy to hear from me and it was beautiful for him to tell me that he loves me. My heart is breaking as I type. Its hard because its become drawn out. The doctors said he had six months left in December of 2012. Its now Feb 2014 - over a year later. God I lift him up to you. Thank you that he isn't in pain. I trust you will take him in the perfect timing, timing according to your will and purpose. Help me through this sadness and loss.
This is a fluid time for me. Maybe I'm finally on the cusp of greatness as Julian put it. I will believe.
God can I trust this new boy? Is he someone you want me to spending my time with? I want my dating life to glorify you. It's so hard for me - it truly is where I stumble in my walk with you. I know relationships are hard - I give this one to you. Whatever you want it to be I accept. I give you my insecurities.
I trust the plan you have for me. I know you will provide. Its not a big deal, I can just ask someone else to help me. Why do I feel anxiety right now? Could have to do with the gluten I ate last night. It's funny, my taste for bread things has dissipated. Not disappeared though - I have my moments.
It was hard talking to my grandpa this evening. The word slurs due to the amount of morphine is a reality check. Its sad for me to see him in this state - especially knowing the kind of man that he was. I want to remember him playing Sorry and blocks and taking us to wendy's. I know he was happy to hear from me and it was beautiful for him to tell me that he loves me. My heart is breaking as I type. Its hard because its become drawn out. The doctors said he had six months left in December of 2012. Its now Feb 2014 - over a year later. God I lift him up to you. Thank you that he isn't in pain. I trust you will take him in the perfect timing, timing according to your will and purpose. Help me through this sadness and loss.
This is a fluid time for me. Maybe I'm finally on the cusp of greatness as Julian put it. I will believe.
Monday, February 3, 2014
random thoughts
My brain tends to think of the most bizarre thoughts while I'm in the shower. For instance tonight I was comparing the admins at my old company to my new. Seriously, is this what I want to be using my thought capacity on?
I feel like all of the Jesus's callings as of late keep hitting the theme of turning thoughts/attention to God. That is where my peace radiates from. His beauty, his grace. All good comes from him. Focus on the beauty. Focus on the good.
God showing me how to take care of me. Reveal a greater depth of your love for me. I want your love to be on my thoughts. God capture my attention. Help me to focus on you.
I feel like all of the Jesus's callings as of late keep hitting the theme of turning thoughts/attention to God. That is where my peace radiates from. His beauty, his grace. All good comes from him. Focus on the beauty. Focus on the good.
God showing me how to take care of me. Reveal a greater depth of your love for me. I want your love to be on my thoughts. God capture my attention. Help me to focus on you.
Saturday, February 1, 2014
blah blah blah
I feel like my life is full. I'm focusing on detaching, and truly living a life of peace and serenity.
Let go let go let go. Acceptance, acceptance, acceptance.
God be with me. Protect me mentally, emotionally, and physically. I lay myself, my finances, and my career in your hands. All of my dreams belong to you. You are the dream giver and despite obstacles I know you have good plans for me. I pray for increased faith and trust in your plan. I ask for the ability to live out your will for me.
Let go let go let go. Acceptance, acceptance, acceptance.
God be with me. Protect me mentally, emotionally, and physically. I lay myself, my finances, and my career in your hands. All of my dreams belong to you. You are the dream giver and despite obstacles I know you have good plans for me. I pray for increased faith and trust in your plan. I ask for the ability to live out your will for me.
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