life is unexpected. it throw lots of curveballs. often, things don't go my way and I'm frustrated with situations out of my control. I'm trying to get back to a place of surrender and peace. Knowing that God's way and truth are what makes me whole.
I'm finding that I often deal with my issues by creating more issues or a distraction. I know its not healthy but me checking out is a coping mechanism I've developed. I didn't get to it overnight and I know I will deal with it, slowly. Giving myself lag room is important. Being 25 is important. Making mistakes is a natural part of the process. I don't have to over think or analyze - just enjoy. I have to recognize how certain situations and relationships affect me. Usually cause me to do something to forget the pain. I get bored and that's when I do something stupid. I'm working towards loving me and giving myself increments in which to let loose. Reaching out is a tool I need to use more of too. I will get back to liking me and accepting what is. Making the most of what I've been given and asking what can I give back.
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